Monday Blues...

Today, I woke up at 5.45am cos I have to travel from home, back to my hostel to put some stuff then go for my 8.30am lesson. Waking up at 5.45am!!! My beauty sleep disrupted... anyway, it wasn't a very good sleep... I slept with a heart carrying tonnes of assignments with me to sleep. Not very healthy. Should just let go and have a good sleep. I tend to do that sub-consciously sometimes. =/ *Mental note: don't carry homework to sleep, you don't sleep well*


Anyway, I am in a very dreamy mood today. It seems like I am not in reality. Everything is like a haze, a dream to me, due to lack of sleep... Before long, my first lecture ended with my mind ringing with my lecturer's words.... "If you are not very motherly, you probably need to be more motherly. Cos if you are not motherly, you will look like you need someone to mother you, how can the students listen to you."


Seriously speaking, I don't think I am the motherly type. But the students will listen to me somehow by my own style and personality. =) I don't really need to be motherly to get them to listen to me... But of course, the basic elements of tender loving kindness (TLK), and tender loving care (TLC) must be there. But Motherly??? Is a totally separate issue. I think being motherly is a learning process for me. Something that I SIMPLY CANNOT imagine myself at this age. Seriously. Esther = Motherly??? You can't even equate like that!!! People will laugh their heads off... hohoho..... =P Frankly speaking, I like the idea of being a modern woman...hehheheh.... =)


The Bible states in Proverbs 31: 10 - 31 "The Wife of Noble Character".
The wife is really very virtuous.
I am not going to type out the whole passage, just verses...
Verse 15 "She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. "


HHmmmm.... food for thought for many girls my age??? I don't think I will even get up early to prepare food for myself. I will probably just sleep more, rush out and have "brunch" on days that I have 8.30am lessons.
On days when I can wake up early, I will probably just eat plain bread, no time to even fry an egg. Cos you need to clear up later like washing the wok etc... which will probably mean more work than eating plain bread. It's good to have such treats sometimes, but not always cos you will probably end up sacrificing a huge portion of your sleep to prepare such a sumptous breakfast.
And I have to admit I don't cook well, only good enough for my own consumption.... hahaha... That is why microwave oven is such a "life-saving invention" for females nowadays. LOL...


Ok, I digressed. Back to main topic --> Being Motherly. Maybe few years down the road if someone were to tell me I am very motherly, or I look very motherly, my first reaction: I will seriously FREAK OUT first, cos I simply can't imagine. Maybe being motherly is good thing, but still, I will freak out first. Then I will slowly digest and process this information and hence react appropriately when the time comes. Cos I won't know what to make out of such a statement, but I can tell for sure, my very first reaction would be that.


Maybe few years of teaching down the road will cultivate the "motherly-ness" in me? I don't know. I don't even want to think about this now.... LOL.... I like the way I am now. Free and easy. =)